Thanks for taking the time to stop by and visit our family blog.
This blog was originally created to post updates on our newborn daughter, which was 4 years ago. God has started using this blog as a ministry and outreach plus a way to record the journey that God is allowing our family to live.
To Our Lord, may He get the Glory and Honor!

Blessings from Shandee

Update: We have been led to further sharing our online journey with posts from the entire family. What started out as a simple blogging journey from a Mother & Wife's perspective has blossomed into a family journey. We now welcome you to The Childress Family Blog.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Happy Anniversary Rick!

12 Years! God has blessed us, Rick. I love you!
We have a beautiful little flower garden.

Easter Photo 2010 ages: 4,5,6,9 and 11 months

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Being REAL

Hi Friends,

It has been such a long time. There are so many times that I think of something really interesting or helpful that I could blog about; but, I don't make the time to carry it out.

Here lately, the Lord has really let me know that sometimes people just want me to BE REAL. What does that mean?
That means being honest, being truthful that if I make my days seem easy on the outside; the truth on the inside is that I pray and I still mess up. It's not always smiles, it's not always easy. My heart wants it to be. But, to be real, there are tears and there are trials I face. I'm learning as I go how to manage a home, 5 young children, and teaching them PLUS all the other things a wife and mother are responsible for. And, to be real, I"m struggling in a bad way. So bad, I've cried out to my husband for help. He is spending the next two days coming to my rescue, I am so thankful.

My fourth-born daughter still has winter clothes in her closet. In 9 years, I have never sorted and thoroughly departed with extra clothes and shoes. We are a larger family now and things have got to go!

We have cancelled a spring mini-vacation two times!

Months and years of lost sleep has caught up on me.

There are so many things I am behind on that it gives me anxiety thinking about it. Right now, I must focus on getting my daughter's school finished for the year. We have big testing coming up so I must focus. Just a few more weeks and we will have summer vacation to catch up on everything.

There are some that have stated to me: you bring this upon yourself.
The answer is yes, I have allowed this to happen. What is this?
"This" is having 5 children age 8 to newborn. "This" is homeschooling. First, my children are gifts. Second, I didn't choose their timing, God did :-) And, that makes it perfect in His eyes. Tiring yet joyful in my eyes. Thirdly; yes, I could send my daughters across the road to school, but God convicted me on that too. Why would I want to send my very best friends out of my sight and care when all I ever dreamt about was to be with them? You see, the Lord has only given me a short time with them forever, and something neat happens-they grow up. Never will I get a chance at this again. Never will I have the chance to see the gleam in my daughter's eyes when she gets her letters formed neatly and correctly in writing class. Never, will I have the chance to experience that my daughter is a surprisingly amazing artist when she completes her phonics assignment in first grade. Never again, will I get the chance to experience how a shy little girl is listening so closely that she knows the answers to problems exceeding her age level. Never again, will I experience my child learning to play music with her little hands that I once saw move on the sonogram screen. Never again, will I get to hold a newborn baby while reading and teaching my other children in school. This moment, my husband is taking down our baby swing that our sweet Naomi has outgrown, never to know if it will be used in our house again. We can't go back and redo. I don't want to have regrets on how I spent the time with my children that the Lord has given me. That is real and that is my focus and my conviction.

You see, it's hard to know how to manage all this because I've never seen it or lived it so I'm trying. Some seasons, I can close my eyes and float and sometimes I have to pray, cry, and concentrate how I"m going to accomplish things. The Lord has not given me a hope and dream without giving me the ability to fulfill it.

Looking forward to joyous times and smooth sailing seaons, but also thankful for the rocky ones because those are the teaching ones!

Many Blessings, Shandee